Here we are. That pinhole of light has been getting larger to the point that it is illuminating my future. It seems my college career has been a black hole of fulfilling an endless list of requirements in order to finally get to where I am soon to be...a classroom! And let me let you in on a secret, I'm not ready.
This seems to be my excuse for everything in life. When it came time to buy a new car, I wasn't ready, time to get married, not ready, time to move, not ready, time to raise a child, still not ready. But here I am, married (still fatherless), in a new location, driving a vehicle I PURCHASED! Life is more than dreaming, it's about taking blind leaps on clouds of faith, without knowing where they will go (wow, I feel like I'm writing a Disney commercial but the metaphors still remain true). And that cloud I hopped on five years ago is now arriving at its destination, yet I still feel surprised to be here.
Surely I need more training before I try to tell others what is valuable for their life journey. There are days I don't even feel like I can manage my own life, so how in the world am I supposed to guide others? Come on Millersville, don't you think I should know some more Shakespeare plays? How about another year learning methods on how to teach and explain this grammar thing? I hope you know what you're doing because I feel as if I don't.
Despite all of these fears rising in me, one thing I am confident about is that this is another obstacle in my journey which I will need to rise to the occasion for. The past serves as a record of my ability to overcome challenges and it is time again. I have been blessed with a job that allows me to implement many teaching methods to young adults, had the opportunity to lead a youth group of HS students, and have a true love for adolescents, showing me that teaching is a real possibility. In order to have success as an educator, the best thing I can do is get out of my own way.
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