Coming to terms with my profession

This first week of classes has reminded me how unprepared I am for the classroom. I am feeling very frightened by the prospect of standing in front of a classroom full of students and knowing that they expect me to lead them and guide them. It's funny that it seems so paralyzing- after all, I have five children. In those terms, I am raising at least 1/4 of a classroom. That is no consolation. I am unprepared in how to create a lesson plan and a unit design. I am not unfamiliar with UBD; but, I am not as comfortable as I should be. I can't say I am completely unprepared, though. I have a lot of exciting ideas that I know I can convey to the students in my future classroom. I am happy to say that the students themselves do not scare me- it is preparation for the classroom that has me worried. In thinking about content, I am least excited to teach grammar (who isn't); although, that doesn't even scare me. My biggest fear is getting through and not getting a job in my field. I know by the end of student teaching I will look back at this blog and laugh at myself for sounding so whiny.