Coming to terms with my profession

In some ways I feel that these year have been a complete blur. I can still remember my first days of classes, who was there, who my professor was, and beginning to feel the stress that college was becoming real. Now, I am sitting my last classes as an undergrad, with some of the same people that were with me before, and feeling the stress that college is coming to an end. It is now hitting me that I will have to leave the confines of Millersville University, go out, and make it on my own. 

At first, when I decided that I was going to take up education, my first thought was: What else am I going to do with an English major? People had told me I would make a great teacher, so might as well give it a shot. I had no idea that I was going to be fascinated with being in the classroom and helping students learned the authors and having the expression that I loved so much. As for being a teacher, I am confident that I will be there for my students. I know that when I get my first teaching job, I will be able to walk into the classroom and tell the students that they can depend on me--teaching or otherwise. In the best of my ability, I will give them the tools that they need and finding out what they want out of the class that I am teaching. Although I know that I will have to follow curriculum and district rules, I want my students to know that I am there for them. However, I think that I will most likely struggle with my confidence in front of them--my main fear is that I don't want to disappoint my students. I do have to remember that failure and fear is inevitable; it's going to hit whether I like it or not, and just roll with the punches.

I tend to prepare for my classroom by sticking with what is important to me--I don't want to lose the values that I am developing as a teacher. I want to show my students in sticking with what is important to you, and truly being yourself with give you the most happiness and a very rewarding life. I also want to make everything that i tell my students relevant to them, as teenagers, and that Shakespeare goes beyond the 16th and 17th centuries. I need to prepare myself by allowing my students to be themselves and giving them the space that they need to create and grow.